but then i'd get on social media
and see people fighting for their lives
despite the adversities
i'd see people having their lives ended
against their wishes
wars, murders, attacks
yet here i am
complaining over the smallest of things
and wanting to give up over the smallest of things
i'd feel selfish
i'd feel guilt
so much so that the thought goes away
but then
i'd also feel like a loser
i'd feel so weak and useless
so much so that the thought comes back
and then the cycle repeats