things haven't been too bad
but they haven't been that good either
ups and downs are part and parcel
that i fully understand
but i'm tired, so tired
fully drained and exhausted
in need of an extended break
i wish time would stop for a bit
things have gotten so repetitive
and i've been getting nightmares
stressing over one thing and then another
i can't get them out of my head
every time a hurdle is passed
a moment of relief, so brief
then yet another appears
like a never ending marathon
this isn't what i want to do anymore
but i can't just uproot and leave
consequences are too abundant
and i'm not ready to face them
i need time to organize my thoughts
so that i can plan ahead
but like i've mentioned, i'm tired
i'm too exhausted to do any of that
so here i am
once again
stuck in cycle
struggling to escape